Tonight, I only have it in me to offer one thought. Even as I type this I am not sure what that thought may be. I have spent a very long day engaged in mostly physical activities. Perhaps 'activities' may not be the right word, since it conjures up an image of something fun or at least enjoyable. Then again maybe there are people out there that consider washing sheets, vacuuming, cleaning 30 windows (at least), and a other random tasks fun. So, I guess I'll leave it as 'activities'. I find that when I spend a day in a marathon like state of only physical things that I don't give myself much of a chance for thought. I may have one or two random things float in and out. And, lucky for you, I do seem to remember that at some point today I gave one particular and insightful thought a good 10 seconds of my time, before moving on to more important things, such as locating the Mr. Clean so I could disinfect the litter boxes properly. Maybe I will revisit that thought and give it some air to breathe, or at the very least let it have a life greater than its original 10 seconds:
I wonder if the current problem I am facing in this season of my life has to do with something bigger than me? Does this new sense of confusion and subsequent inefficiency that I fight daily have more to do with the age I now am, than with my own emotional deficiencies? I mean is 'this' place I now seem to be just part of the journey or do I need to pull a Scarlett O'Hara and smack myself back into the focused person I once was. Quite honestly, I'm beginning to wonder if that person ever existed, even though I find evidence daily that she once was here. Possibly, in this very house. I mean someone had to have organized the spices into the 'cooking' and 'baking sections I have in the kitchen. I don't think they came with the house when we bought it? Although, I could always check the paper work to verify.
You are probably thinking, "that took only 10 seconds?" No, it didn't. Remember I was trying to give it some air. So there it is in its breathing state floating around for all the universe to see. My one thought of the day.
finally a place to comment on cleaning! first, i'm sorry if your love affair is heading south. i hate to be the friend that boasts of such great sex the night before while the other is sniffling in Kleenex over her divorce, BUT i had a 12 hour cleaning marathon on Saturday. I needed it... control cleaning. It felt wonderful. and i have a new product. Usually i clean just about everything with Lysol 2-sided wipes or Method spray- nontoxic (cucumber melon all purpose or eucalyptus tub and tile- this is what I imagine HEAVEN SMELLS LIKE), but sometimes I need something a little more potent. Enter: Fantastic with Oxy Power. One squirt and I can't stop. It smells so good. I have to be careful not to use it to dust the wood though; it's for glass, stovetop, bathrooms, etc. I love it!
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