Too Much Information

I hadn't planned to return to my 'blogging', which is quite obvious from the fact that I haven't posted since early June.  However, I rarely follow through with most of my plans.  Today as I sit in front of my computer on a windy cold afternoon in November, I have decided to share some of my thoughts once again.  I'm not really sure why I am doing this, since I was informed recently from a most reliable source that people are more interested in pictures than words.  But, I have always loved the written word and the emotions and feelings it can conjure inside myself.  Okay, enough 'rambling'. 

I very recently decided to leave the comfort of my medically induced state of mind and join the world as my former overly anxious self.  I think after seven years of fooling people into thinking I was a calm together kind of person, I began to feel like a fraud.  No, I guess that isn't quite accurate.  I didn't really feel like a fraud, since I don't think I was feeling much of anything.  I look back on that moment when I decided that the 'professionals' clearly new better and sold my soul for a $5 co-pay.  But, that was back when I still had faith in what the 'medical' world had to offer.  So much has transpired in my life since then and as I have made successful alternative changes in other areas of my life, I decided that perhaps it was time to leave behind my tiny pill that apparently causes 'Clubbed Foot' and other odd things.  I came by this info quite reliably on the side window of my facebook page, so it must be true. 

Anyway, after going through weeks of detox from this slightly addicting club foot drug, I am proud to announce that I am once again certifiably insane.  And, I must say it's great to be back.  Why just the other night I was thinking how refreshing it was to loose it on my children for having the audacity to leave all the throw pillows on the floor after an apparent battle in the basement. Then there were the refreshing tears that came so easily as I looked at a photograph of someone I met once over a year ago.  Life is a gift and I no longer see the need to try and live it as someone else, no matter how together I may appear to be.